What a week…..can’t believe Friday is here again. This week was one of those weeks. Those weeks you feel like if you could do it over you would change things. My babies are sick and now my hubby is sick too. They are congested and uncomfortable. This makes for a challenging job for mom.
We tried to slow things down and rest. Expectations were lowered and we just did the best we could. It was good for me to slow down….. after these past couple of weeks I am tired.
When I get tired I often start worrying about the future of my children. All of my children and then wonder if this worrying will ever go away. HA! Worrying is exhausting and I really don’t like it. I hate it. It literally sucks the life out of me.
Grace thinks Uncle Oliver is deserving of tons of love. She pours it out to him!!
I had a field trip with my 2nd son and so my sister in law watched the babies so I could meet him at a play his class was attending. When she walked in the door I said,” alright! Does it get easier?? “and she responded,” What are you talking about?” I said, “This parenting thing, does it get easier?” She laughed and said,” Bigger kids, Bigger Worries, you will always worry.” I get that, I do. I just have not had teenage or adult children so I really do not have any idea of what those big worries could even be. I kind of live in this dream land of it will get easier. I do not want to wish away the childhood of any of my kids but I do want to know they are going to be ok.
I want to know that all of them will finish school, be healthy and become successful in their life. I want to know they will be happy. Right now the day to day struggles seem so big sometimes and if I knew everything was going to be ok, maybe they would not be as big! Right?? HA!
Well I know it is not possible to predict the future, still not easy for me….. the unsteady and uncertainty of the future. I hate it. I really hate it. I told my husband I am going to need some serious work on my face because when I have weeks like this one and I walk around with my face all scrunched up, I know it is making a lasting impact! I have my kids telling my I need to order proactive for my blemishes, what they don’t know is that I can name each one of those zits with some sort of worry. Needless to say I am in a funk!
The gorgeous day today helped me work through it but the sensitivity of worry is still there. It is crazy how we love our kids so much we just want to wrap our arms around them and protect them from life.
I know that is not productive and they need the exposure to life in order to grow but it is hard. Hard to let them go and hard to see them fall. Even though each time they fall they find the strength to get back up. It is my job to make sure they are prepared to take on their life in a full confident force! That is a huge job. HUGE!
The boys decided that the 5 candles I put on the cake were not enough. They had to add 5 additional, more manly they told me!
Well this post naturally progresses into the BIRTHDAYS! Yep I have 2 who are graduating to a whole new year of life. I love the celebration of birthdays but I am always sad to bid farewell to another year of my children’s life. They are getting older and my job is closer to being done. The job of molding them…. They will soon be taking their own experiences and molding their own life. Crazy! I swear my oldest son was just born last month. OK so it has been 10 years but really feels like last month!
My Sean turned 5 today. 5 years young….5 years old to him. We ate cake and ordered pizza for his special day. Today he felt special and I am so glad.
I am working through this funk and once I get over the hump I have some amazing recipes coming your way! Projects I am working on….. I just needed to take this week and focus on these little beings that make my life interesting! Needed them to remind me that even with the bumps our little road we are blessed…so blessed!